Every now and then when I get the chance to slow down a bit, I stop and think about all the things I miss back home.

I miss seeing my family every day. I love my family. I miss my parents. I miss my brothers.I'm sad that I'm probably going to miss the birth of Eric's baby. I'm sad that I don't get to help Brandy plan her wedding or be there when it takes place. I'm sad that I won't get to go to Thanksgiving Dinner where half of my family get's together.

I miss going to Life Bridge every Sunday. I love my church family. I miss the Bridge Builders group and the student Ministries. I miss doing Project Valpo. I'm sad that I am missing out on what the church is doing, because I believe so much in the vision of Life Bridge. To empower one more to walk together with Christ.

I miss Bethel College. I miss taking classes and learning. I miss my old classmates. They were some of the most amazing people I knew. I'm sad that I don't have my degree. And it saddens me that God may not have it planned for me to finish my degree.

I don't know where God wants me in this life. I am absolutely clueless as to where He is leading me or what His plans for me are. I don't know if I will ever go back home to Valpo, or if I will ever finish college, or if I will move somewhere else or travel, or if I will marry, or if any of the plans I had before now will ever come to be.

Right now I have no plans. I have no agenda. I don't know where God is taking me. In some ways i'm bothered by the idea that I love and miss might not be a part of my future. I know that whatever God has planned for me, he is wiser than I am and His plans are greater than mine.

I just wish I could get a glimpse of what lies ahead of me.

Project Valpo

I had a great time passing out soda's to people today, holding signs, taking pictures, putting cards on the cans, yelling 'red light!' and 'green light', carrying heavy containers, holding cold soda's, waving to people passing by, smiling, telling people God loves them, encouraging people, seeing two of the people that I've met on my walks, praying, laughing, bidding the lights to turn red and stay red, walking through Valplayso to pass out soda's, giving soda's to the protesters...

This was a really good day and I really felt like God was there and even ordaining our meetings with some of the people.

But now I'm at home, and it's like there is this emptiness. But I guess it's almost natural to feel empy after you've spent time pouring out to other people. And that's why it's important to 'refill' everyday. We ask God to fill us up so He can pour us out. :-)

If I'm wrong, someone tell me.

Anyway, I'm going to 'refill' and have some alone time with God.

GOD BLESS YOU!!!