Sunday, December 16, 2007

I would rather be doing anything other than what I'm supposed to be doing right now.... which is restoring my interpersonal communications paper to it's formal glory. Friday was a rough day for me. I'd been living on very little sleep for 3 days and Friday I just broke down. If people weren't worried about me, they might have thought I was hilarious. I was crying uncontrollably, and then somewhere in the mix I started laughing uncontrollably. So here I am and I can't control my emotions. Have you ever cried and laughed at the same time? It's a strange sensation. It's confusing because you don't know how you really feel. So anyway, I cried and laughed uncontrollably for the next few hours. I've never had anything like that happen before, but the further away friday gets, the less I remember about it. When you are severely sleep deprived and extremely stressed, I guess the mind just loses it for a few hours. I also had a horrible headache and I couldn't concentrate. I felt really horrible about myself. I just kept saying that God had been really gracious to me and I'd overextended his grace and I didn't deserve anymore.

So I decided to try to catch up on sleep gradually instead of sleeping for 15 hours straight and ending up being on a sleeping pattern where I didn't sleep at night. So pretty much I've been trying to get between 9 and 10 hours of sleep and I'm just not feeling it.

The weekend was way too short this week. I went to the midnight breakfast on Friday (even though I should have just stayed home and slept), Friday I worked, Sunday I spent most of the day at house church. And now here I am, nothing to do until noon tomorrow (today?) which is just turning in a paper anyway.

Finals week is the best week of the semester because it's the least stressful. No worries about classes. If you don't know the material by now it doesn't matter because you're screwed if you try to memorize 500 vocab words in a week. Yeah... freedom to do what you want, when you want, but yet still a need for responsiblity and great socialization.

oh yes... it also snowed. It was great.

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